Jacked...

guess what...i have just got jacked...i cant believe what just happened to me...and that also was professionally orchestrated by none other then someone i never thought would do that...hows that for a jack...kinda crappy na...i still cant believe it happened...but i guess it did...and i have been shown where i belong...good going...to that someone...the next time you think of running to me for anything, you can just do this...

Look At My Lookalikes...

DAMN!!!!

Do you know what it feels like to have half your heart pulled out of its place slowly, day by day??? well ask me and ill tell you how it feels....it feels awful...really bad....and it hurts like hell....it brings a tear to my eyes whenever i think about it....my eyes are even watering now as i write this....and you know whats the worst part of all?? there is nothing i can do or say to stop this from happening....and it sucks when you dont have control over situations....i so wished i had control over this....nevertheless, i will get through this as always....i dont have a habit of giving up....im strong, i know....but that doesnt mean i cant feel pain right....and it hurts even more everyday as it gets nearer to the time of separation....I HATE THIS!!!!

Butterflies....

***lub dup...lub dup...lub dup....***well thats the sound of my heart beating....now accelerate that by twice and thats how fast its beating....damn i hate this feeling....hate it hate it hate it....but it doesn't go away....oh yeah, and might i add....I've also got tiny butterflies flying around my tummy and that dont feel good either...

damn!! well I've been applying for jobs since that now im a graduate....and from those application, there is a walk-in interview on the 19th of this month...yes, its that long time to go but im getting the nervousness now itself...crappy huh!! not that i dont have confidence in myself....i do have alot infact...but its just that there are like 80 other applicants and some with even better qualifications than myself....so it kinda makes me insecure or something bout this whole issue....i guess i kinda want this job huh....

maybe its my 1st interview and thats why the cold feet....oh damn....scary isnt it....hope i will do well if i do go for the interview...need to discuss with the parents 1st about this....im currently doing soft breathing exercise to slow down my heart beat and kill the butterflies....but its not working....***lub dup...lub dup...lub dup...*** damn!!!

Im Back....

hello peeps...im back from my one and a half week holiday out around malaysia...it felt like i was out from my house for years...hehe...guess its because we utilized our time real well and never wasted any time just sitting down doing nothing...below are some pictures from the trip taken at ipoh, kuala lumpur, and malacca...

( us in MP - ipoh)

(us at a cave temple - ipoh)


(us at a taugeh ayam shop - ipoh)

(us with dasrath - kl)


(our backpackers '07 momento - kl)


(us ready for the night life - kl)


(gerals 22nd birthday at bamboo hut - malacca)


(sunshine bar - malacca)


(geographers - malacca)


(pure bar - malacca)

there are some other pictures that i still dont have which are with yogi...hehe...and i didnt take pictures with my baby n deepu sayang...especially our JD party...but its okie...there will be more to come...hehe...okies peeps...thats all for now...till i have the mood to write again...see ya people