*GRRRRRRRRR...*

well i guess the title shows that i have got something bothering me....

dont bother asking what cause i dont think ill explain....hehe....but its not bout my family or friends though....so dont worry peeps....its nothing you have done :)

but i think most of you out there would have experienced this in your life before....you know just how irritating things can be when deep down inside you need something soooo much but then you know that you need to take control of your feelings and not surrender to it for your own good....damn!!! hate that feeling....

im going through that feeling exactly this minute....i want something sooooooooo bad that its eating me inside....but i cant give up though....i need to refrain myself and keep my distance as long as i can to get a message through....atleast i hope it will get through....damn!!! and im missing you too :(

damn....oh yeah, i went for car shopping today....kinda found a suitable candidate to purchase....so im keeping my fingers crossed that all works out well *smiles*

but i still hate what im feeling now....haih....*grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*