Idols....

hey peepz....well im finally done with my work for the day....actually more like done with the work for the whole training...hehe....i wish....so now that i got some free time and i am feeling kinda bored as well....here i am again to crap my thoughts out....hehe....enough of programming already for the day....it was fun but i guess i need a break too since it can be very demanding at times.... now im all set for my secret mission...."what that?" i hear you ask....hehe....sorry but i cant tell....ts a surprise for someone....once i have surprised that person....then maybe ill share it with you all okie....for those of you out there who knows, please keep it a secret for me until its okie to tell it out....hehe....thanks


okie well....this is my routine everyday....i will follow my dad to work at 8 am and wait there until 8.30am before coming to my office since i only start work then....so while waiting, i would read the news paper to kill time....why am i telling all this?? hehe....well cause my post today has to do with something i read in the papers yesterday....hehe....i was reading the paper yeasterday morning, when i came across this section where kids would send in their drawings and short essays....this weeks topic was about their idols....and i saw so many many kids with idols such as linsay lohan, britney spears, paris hilton, and the list goes on....they were writing about how they want to grow up to be exactly like their idols....they things they want to do....and the life they want to live....

that got me thinking bout me when i was that age....i had loads of idols as well....i wanted to be like every successful celebrity that made it big....hehe....makes me feel stupid thinking bout the dreams i had once upon a time....but then, i bet all of us went through that stage right....even though most would like to forget it since its so embarassing....hehe....but then sometimes they are sweet memories....for they remind us of what we were like and what we have become....i still can remember all the people i wanted to be like....i wont disclose any names to keep my face.... hehe....its a secret people....

okie okie...back to the point of this post....looking back on what i wanted to be and what i have become....sad to say....none of my then idols actually contributed anything....not in the look i carry....the character i have....or even the way i think....not even a bit....and i dont think many of us actually do become like our celebrity idols....we actually turn out totally different....the reason?? well, from my own confession....my choice of idols were based on physical attractiveness....if they looked good, i wanted to be them....if they were slim....i wanted to be them....i didnt really care about the personality they had....or the image they potrayed....or even the kind of person they are in life....i was just attracted to how they looked....thats why my idols kept changing all the time....

i would say my real idols were probably my family and sum friends when i was young....my family still are my idols....cause till today i still do try to follow some traits from them....as for friends....i think i have grown up enough to know what to follow and what not to....so i seldom try to be like friends anymore....for i prefer to be my own person....unique and different....i have my own personality and style people....hehe....and my preferences are also very much different from the people around me....but that doesnt make me or them bad....that makes us different and that connects us more as individuals....since as the saying goes "opposites attract".... variety makes a better flavour....ill agree on that....hehe....

okies peeps....i need to pack up now....time for me to leave this office and head back to my home sweet home....am kind of hungry already....need tea time....hehe....just wanted to share my thoughts with you all and thats exactly what i did....i wrote all that came out from my head without any censorship....hehe....ill rate it 18 PL perhaps....hehe....just kidding....so ill take my leave here....till we meet again in this .::Mystical Knots::. of mine....take care and thanks for your time....ciaozZz